Dear Friends,

I look back on my life right now and think about what I could have been. What I couldn't done or where I would be if things were differant. If I wasn't me. What if my parents weren't me. What if I didn't grow up where I did. What if I didn't choose the friends I have now. What if I conformed every moment when another human being forced me to. That's the big one really. So many people in my life attempted to force me into a certain lifestyle. Most of which didn't do it out of spite. They usually felt like they were helping me. But, how can you help someone you don't know. To fix a problem, to me, the best way is to gather all the information generally related and search for the right answer. So to help me, you would have to know what I was about. What my likes and dislikes are. What I love to do. What I hate more than anything. The things that make me laugh, smile, and cry. The things I am most passionate about. My dreams. Yet, no one seemed to take that step. Most of those people had some preconceived notion of what I needed and what was the "Best for Me." So the question I have is what if I believed those people. What if I said, "Yah your right." Would I be happier? Would I be miserable? Would I have met the people I have known to love as friends? Would any of you be eceiving this email? Would I be able to tackle simply things like ACHEIVING and MAINTAINING a steady girlfriend? Would I even be here?

Yes.

I didn't make it to St. Louis with aspirations of becoming a musician by shear luck. I didn't pick up my first guitar 2 years ago just because somebody left it there. I didn't meet the influencial people in my life just because I happened to live in the same town, go to the same school or be in the same room at the same time. Coincedence? No way Jose (shout out to my all-spanish speaking trainer at work...Jose:o) I made it here because this is what I was supposed to do. I made it here because this was my purpose. And I continue because I must fulfill my purpose. I must do what I was created to do. I can't do anything else. Because you can't FAKE your life. You can't be anybody else but, you. Dave Thomas founder of Wendy's loved his Grandma very much. She always told him "Don't cut corners in life." Hence Wendy's square burgers. It's corny but, it makes a lot of sense. I can't be anything other than me. I can't do anything other than what I am here to do. And I can't let anything that was dealt into my life for a purpose....pass me by. If I do the super secret drug called "FoxDie" from METAL GEAR SOLID which was injected into my body by Dr. Naomi Campell right before my Spy Mission will go into effect.

(I think I just figure out the girlfriend problem.....)

Love you guys,

Anthony Doria