Dear Friends,

Hey Everyone. It's time once again for another Dear Friends. Just for the record by the way....the last dear friends, where I wrote about my problem with Scrappy, the Phone and my crayons? Well, it kinda has been taken care of. See Scrappy ran away before I could get home to see him. I guess I just can't take care of my pets huh?

Anyways, let's move on.

Life is a very strange thing. Well, for me it is anyway. See for a good 18 years of my life I lived to find one thing.....a girl. I figured if I found that everything else would just fall into place. But, I realized that's not true. I hit a huge wall in my life and it's the best wall I ever hit because it taught me to take control of my life and make my own decisions so I could be happy. It also taught me that the desires of my heart might not come exactly when I yearn for them or in the way I yearn for them. I just lost....again.....something I have yearned for ever since it became a possiblity for me. But, I spent a the last day thinking. Maybe it's just not time for it. Or maybe it's not even the best for me. My life has a certain path that will make me happy and complete, it's just up to me to keep myself on it. And it's up to me to realize what supplies I need during which spot I am at on my path. (If that didn't make sense forgive me It's 5:59am and I haven't gone to bed yet) Anyway, the point I probably am not even close to is, We humans are filled with desires that plague our minds and hearts through our whole life but, I think we should realize that though we may feel we need something just because we don't physically don't possess it doesn't mean it's not there and sometimes not having something (or someone) is best for us at certain times. Of course this theory isn't proven true when it comes to Kerri Maxwell (my high school crush) who after four long years I still didn't get a darn date with...:o) But, who knows maybe that was for the best too. Or maybe I don't know what the heck I am talking about because I just stayed up all night watching American History X for the first time (Excellent Movie by the way). In any case.....As my feelings, thoughts and emotions are jumbled inside my head I sit and try to clarify....relaxing with my guitar and playing Dave Mathews' #41. (Wow, I went deep with this one friends so If you think I am a crazy psycho send me back an email saying so....on the other hand if you can relate in some way with my feelings send me a message with this simple sentence and nothing else...."I know how you feel, man!")

Love you guys,

Anthony Doria