Dear Friends,

Our lives often revolve around one thing and one thing only. Ourselves. This is not a "conceited" rant or far from it. It is more of just an analyzation that has occured to me over that last few days. Everyone on this earth has one thing in common. No matter what skin color. No matter what Gender. No matter what physical attribute anyone possesses, everyone's life revolves around themselves. Of course this is not a bad thing. I have been a long-time advicate of "Being your own person" and "living life the way you see fit" but, the one drawback everyone receives with controling their own lives is they have no power over the fate that is intended for another. Infact, short of Miss Cleo, no one even has the power to comprehend what might happen in someone else's life in a month. A week. One night. One moment. Although I understand the grave danger that would accompany this power, this weekend for a moment I wish I possessed it. I wish I knew the future. I wish I was allowed to change it. It was then that I realized that I was revolved around my own life. I was wrapped up in my plans. Constantly debating my next move. Because shockingly, at two in the morning, I received some news. The type of phone call that no wants wants to hear and then begs for it not to be real in duration. The phone call that you wish was just a freakish nightmare to remind you that your friend misses you. That you miss her. The phone call that gives you that feeling of emptyness in a split second. The phone call that above all else has the power to stop your self-revolved life dead in it's tracks. The phone call that humble reports that your friend has passed away.

To a friend that showed great love. To a friend who was always the first one to reply to my emails. To a friend who always was there to listen to me bitch, complain, cry, whine, talk, gush, and goof. To a friend who heard me cry. To a friend who heard me laugh. To a friend who I could always go to no matter what the hour. Most importantly, to a friend who probably understood but more importantly accepted me more than a lot of people have ever even attempted.

I love you and I will miss you Ruby.

Now you are in Heaven....where the song "Whip it" is forbidden :o)

Anthony