Dear Friends,

I'm sorry
I'm sorry I did it but, I couldn't help my self
it snuck up on me really
I was suprised myself
I never even seen it coming
I was just with you one day and to my suprise it popped out and grabbed me
I didn't want it to happen
I didn't want to complicate things
I just wanted life to be normal but, no
it had to change
and it has changed hasn't it
respect has been lost
why?
because the friendship was not strong enough to handle a blow like this
we were too weak
fragile
there was no way of knowing that the rope would break
but, now it has and I am powerless to stop it from sinking into the abyss
the abyss of loneliness
The abyss of where so many friendships that were never born will rest
So many wonderful memories that will never be because I was selfish enough to go and do what I did
At first I thought it would be good
We could share our lives
Hours of talking, chatting
realization of how many things we have in common or how many we don't have in common but, find so interesting
Our lives intertwine, music being the glue
we simultanisously aid each other as if we are the medicine that each other have been looking for
I am amazed at your beauty, and willingness to move on even all that has happened
we learn from each other
and care for one another
and believe in one another
because I believe in you
I do
but, maybe that's what got me in this mess
You being so Godly
So heavenly
So unbelievable that my eyes grew bigger than my stomach
I thought I could obtain this magic
But, I can't
And I see now what my attempt has done
It's ruined any chance I had with you
It's derailed any relationship that was on track
It's wilted any flower that was meant to bloom
I'm sorry
I'm sorry for this
For I know that there is no way that I can repay you



That was written for all the girls out there that were mortified the day they found out, "Anthony Doria has a crush on you."

Love you guys,

Anthony Doria